Mother Ayahuasca began to call me, showing up in the most unusual places. Looking out at me from my computer screen, whilst researching socks. Every time I did a search on the internet somewhere on the page there would be a reference to Ayahuasca, an article, or video link. Over and over this occurred until I recognised she was calling me and clicked upon the links and began to research. I had known about Ayahuasca for many years, I had knowledge of medicinal plants, it was on my list, yet my knowledge about Ayahuasca was limited. As I researched energy began to rise in my body causing me to feel like a consciousness was sneaking up on me.
Testimonials of other travellers only inspired me more and I began to dream. Waking in the early hours of one morning I clearly heard the words “You are a daughter of the Vine “, what did it all mean?
The months past and finally my destination was fixed, my launch pad set upon the earth. Dressed all in white not for some hippy reason but because colours and patterns only increase the sickness, I reminded myself to breathe.
“Ayahuasca (usually pronounced /aɪjəˈwæskə/ or /ˈaɪjəˈwɑːskə/), also commonly called yagé (/jɑːheɪ/), is a brew of various psychoactive infusions or decoctions prepared with the Banisteriopsis caapi vine. It is either mixed with the leaves of dimethyltryptamine (DMT)-containing species of shrubs from the genus Psychotria or with the leaves of the Justicia pectoralis plant which doesn’t contain DMT. The brew, first described academically in the early 1950s by Harvard ethnobotanist Richard Evans Schultes, who found it employed for divinatory and healing purposes by the native peoples of Amazonian Peru, is known by a number of different names.
It has been reported that some effects can be had from consuming the caapi vine alone, but that DMT-containing plants (such as Psychotria) remain inactive when drunk as a brew without a source of monoamine oxidase inhibitor (MAOI) such as B. caapi. How indigenous peoples discovered the synergistic properties of the plants used in the Ayahuasca brew remains unclear. While many indigenous Amazonian people say they received the instructions directly from plants and plant spirits, researchers have devised a number of alternative theories to explain its discovery. People who have consumed Ayahuasca report having massive spiritual revelations regarding their purpose on earth, the true nature of the universe as well as deep insight into how to be the best person they possibly can.
This is viewed by many as a spiritual awakening and what’s often described as a rebirth. In addition it is often reported that individuals can gain access to higher spiritual dimensions and make contact with various spiritual or extra dimensional beings who can act as guides or healers.
It’s nearly always said that people experience profound positive changes in their life subsequent to consuming Ayahuasca and it is often viewed as one of the most effective tools of enlightenment. However, during an Ayahuasca experience, people sometimes report nausea, diarrhoea, and cold flashes. Additionally, vomiting can follow Ayahuasca ingestion; this purging is considered by many shamans and experienced users of Ayahuasca to be an essential part of the experience as it represents the release of negative energy and emotions built up over the course of one’s life.
Further, it should be noted that the ingestion of Ayahuasca can cause significant, but temporary emotional and psychological distress. There are many reports of miraculous physical as well as emotional and spiritual healing resulting from the use of Ayahuasca. Long-term negative effects are not known.” – Wikipedia.
Kneeling in front of the shaman not a native to the Amazon, but a shaman never the less, I watched him shift into a wise man in front of my eyes, I shoke inside my nerves taking over. The brew was dark and woody , it had a potent and strange aroma which filled the air, it was given in a small thin glass. The taste was expected to be fool and yes it was ! As I swallowed it down I remembered the taste. My body vibrated if only for a moment with a recognition of this fool brew, had I taken it before?
Returning to my mattress I lay down waiting for something to happen. Nothing did , it turned out that the brew was not powerful enough to enter the realm of Mother Ayahuasca , disappointed I lay back expecting nothing more.
My intent had been set , I wished for the release of the grief and sadness that I carried in my heart, that had been there since my first memory. I wished to be free of the pain which I carried as a stone in my heart chakra. Gaia’s sweet voice encouraged me to look at the grief anyway as I knew how to heal myself and I was of course supported by three powerful healers , this was a opportunity even though the brew was not powerful enough to really say it was a true Ayahuasca journey . So I lay back and moved into the space of my heart and saw that I had a block superimposed over the stone of grief. I had placed this there as a way of blocking myself from feeling the incredible pain that I carried. This block was preventing me from feeling full stop, I had noticed a lack of empathy and compassion , I now realised it was coming from this block and it had to be removed. I looked deeper and deeper guided by what I thought was Gaia but now I am not so sure I have a sneaky suspicion that it was really Mother Ayahuasca in disguise. The block was blocking my life force as well as my heart felt emotions, it was limiting my expression and also having a physical affect upon my breathing. I breathed through the block and all of a sudden it dissolved to reveal the grief below.
I saw Amazon rainforests being logged , this was the first of the visuals that were presented to me by Mother Ayahuasca, as each tree fell I could feel them falling in my body. One of the female shamans began using a strange metal instrument which sounded like knives going one over another , it felt like it was cutting into my back. Dolphins beached through miltitary experiments , oil being drained from the earth, nuclear radiation and many more terrible ecological diasters ,brought about by the hands of man were shown to me in visuals and deep feelings .I realised that the tears I so gladly shed was the grief I carried for Gaia. She told me in a clear voice that she had asked several people to feel and cry the pain of Gaia. She explained to me that if people allowed the tears then it would take the pressure off and she would not need to have tidal waves, earth quakes and many more of the earth changes which have been predicted for these times. We were averting many earth diasters through our feeling of her emotions. I realised that it did not matter if the tears felt like they would never end, as I was healing myself and Gaia in my crying. I cried and cried and allowed myself to really feel, it was a painful and precious experience.
The following day passed quickly and after everyone shared their experience, we were told that the brew was to be made stronger ,so I began to get excited as to what would occur. My stomach was groaning through lack of food I began to feel sick . Purging is a thing you have to accept if you take Ayahuasca , you purge either one end or another .
This was not purging it was just the Ayahuasca hitting my empty stomach , I was disappointed I thought it would not work. However the Shaman came to me and gave me a second glass. Breathing through it I managed to keep the medicine down and my journey began. Many people have judgements around taking drugs especially Hallucinogens , I recognise it is a medicine given to us from Gaia. She has manifest this amazing medicine in order to further our consciousness shift she is coming out of the Rain forests to enter our western culture, as we are in desperate need of a paradigm shift. She is calling people to enter a journey with her , I feel she has a plan which is not clear but I have an intuitive feeling that there is more to come.
As we began a chakra toning exercise I felt my body begin to vibrate , a constant hum which began in my base chakra and began to ascend my body , lighting up each chakra until I felt like I was a cloud of vibration of colour and sound, it was hard to feel where my physical body ended if I had a body anymore. I could feel the tones still ringing through my energy body.
Music seems to guide the journey deeper , it is not always beautiful , many tunes was discordant and made me feel terrible inside. Rising to my feet I began to vibrate even more until my legs seemed to have been taken over my Mother Ayahuasca she was moving my legs in a way I cannot duplicate in my everyday life. The energy rose up from the earth and entered my feet and rose up my body , making me feel sick one minute and elated the next. I could feel my kundalini activate and intensely the vibration rose up my body , Mother Ayahuascahad possessed me like a vine had crept into my veins. It was a strange thing to experience no control over the body and to have another being inside moving my arms and legs.
Upon my back was a black slug, leech like being which was a parasite it was on my upper back on the right hand side. It was awful I felt like it was feeding off my light and love and was feeding me negative thoughts and feelings. I realised that this being had been making me feel depressed and tired and had been affecting me for several months. I realised many of my negative thought patterns were coming from this being and it was not me. The Shaman rattled her rattle and sang to me in a dark deep groan, eventually the black slug was removed and I felt like I grew over 20 feet tall. I could feel the energy rushing up my body and I was also been showered with a column of light which contained many geometric star coded patterns which entered my body and I could see if only briefly them enter my dna .
Travelling to a planet in Orion I was travelling to the home of the slug parasite beings. She showed me why they were attached to me how they had no access to light and love of the universe. I told them I did not want them taking my light but they could have my love , I had plenty of that . As I focused upon these beings and sent them only a small amount of love they transformed in front of my eyes. They turned from black slugs to white cacoons which hatched into white angelic beings which then flew back to source, it was the most incredible experience.
Guided by Mother AyahuascaI I lay back and began to travel , egyptian symbols , keys of Enoch, runes and many more symbols flooded my vision as I watched as they entered my dna. I could see deep inside my body , past the physical into the light body I could see the affects of these keys upon my light body. What was she doing ?
In the early hours of the morning as the affects of the brew began to fade away , Mother Ayahuascasaid to me “ Do you know you and I are the same “ I thought what on earth did she mean. “ We are daughters of the Vine” , she then showed me not the vine from the Amazon but a dna vine which extended from the source to earth , she showed me many thousands of species and races of beings that had come from this vine , she showed me how the vine was two serpents , she explained to me that she was one of the serpents and I was the other . I was blown away!