Embracing the Decay!

When I looked at the pain of the planet and the environmental damage that humans caused, it made me weep. When I went to the woods and saw condoms, beer cans and damage to trees I could throw myself upon the earth and cry until there was no more water in my body. I had given up watching the logging in the rainforest, the pollution of the seas and the spraying of the skies with chemtrails, I cowardly could no longer bare the pain of Gaia. I teach that we all are a multidimensional, divine, creator of our world and reality. I show people how to integrate their soul and experience the truth vibration of their being. Everyone’s truth is the same, you are the source of your reality, and you are powerful, divine and creative. You are the Universal Dreamer expressing itself at a single point; you are the universe having a human experience. If we are this powerful, and the creator of our reality, then surely so is Gaia. All my life I have carried such a deep sense of grief around my relationship with Gaia. I found it hard to have any interaction with her without crying my eyes out. During my very first Ayahuasca Ceremony I decided to heal this once and for all. So I set the intention as we went into ceremony.

I focused on my heart space, the place that was full of the grief and breathed in my soul, working with Mother Ayahuasca and my soul, I went into the pain. I was taken deep inside and saw one scene after another of forests being chopped down and burnt , dolphins beaching themselves, sea birds covered in oil , I saw oil refineries and nuclear power stations. I saw litter on the beach and chemicals poured into rivers. I cried and cried and cried, it was immensely painful. Once Mother Ayahuasca had healed me, Gaia came into my awareness and she told me that I had asked to feel her and be with her and that is why I had been crying for so many years. The pain I had felt was her pain and that by crying her tears I was allowing her to express herself without having to have huge earth quakes. She told me that all people who cry the tears of Gaia are preventing these earth quakes and we were doing a great service for her. During my third Ayahuasca ceremony I asked about the chemtrails in particular but also referred to all environmental damage done to Gaia , if Gaia was all powerful which we know she is , then why does she not do something to save herself, why does she allows us to continue to hurt her. As I asked the question I looked down at my body and was shocked to see myself beginning to rot, maggots crawled out of my skin I was decaying in front of my eyes. I was about to be scared but Mother Ayahuasca encouraged me to breathe and go into the decay as it was potent she said. So I did!

I felt myself totally rot away until the energy which had been contained in the matter of my body was released. I came to really understand the energy which is trapped in matter, the 666. Within the black there is such a power, such an immense amount of energy, it is mind blowing. Then I remembered what Nassim Haramein had said that there was more energy, than in the whole universe, in a centimetre cube of space or dark matter. I came to understand the energy of the satanic. Now when I say satanic I do not mean the satanic worship that we see today, there are no blood sacrifices within this level; these are only perverted teachings of corrupt minds. The 666 matter of which I was now merged was not a place of devils and demons but the home of the dark female Goddess, Kali, Hecate and Lilith. The consort to this Goddess was Pan, Herne the Hunter and the Horned God who was later demonised by the Catholic Church and turned into the devil we know today as Satan.

In my experience of working with these various deities, they appear as we perceive them. If we as a collective think of a being a certain way, then they have no choice but to clothe themselves in the images, ideas and beliefs we have about these deities that reside in our collective unconscious. If we think of them as demons and devils or dark evil goddesses then that is exactly how they have to appear. When I met Lilith she appeared as a demon woman until I held her in her truth and then watched her transform into a wonderful naked goddess with a serpent coiled around her waist and trees and flowers sprouting from her body. These deities Lilith, Hecate, Kali and Pan are some of many underworld deities.

Gaia began to talk to me and she asked me to feel the power in the decay and the death of the body. She told me that she too wanted to decay. She asked me if I was scared of death and I replied no. She asked me if I was my body and I said no it is my vehicle. Then she said that she too lived beyond death, she too was not scared, she too was not her body it was only a vehicle for her consciousness. She told me just like me she wanted to reincarnate into a new form a body of light, the light of a star. Just like we want to inhabit a body of stars so does she. She told me something which will take a lot of digesting and absorbing before I fully understand this. She told me she was grateful for the destruction and she was allowing it for many reasons but the main one was she wanted to remain conscious through the death process and decay, release the energy that was trapped inside her matter, her 666 and turn herself to light. I was not to worry about the destruction because it was all part of the process and I was to wonder at the energy in the matter, the fertilizer of the soul she called it. I then saw a big pile of steaming cow dung and as I watched a blue lotus flower emerged from the dung and opened into a beautiful flower, it took my breath away!